Spiritual Work In Progress

Christmas Eve,
I witnessed my mind bombed to ground, as
I saw the rubble, debris in horror, suddenly
I frozen everything is gone, everything is gone, and
I lost sights of everything, my pillars, my principles.

Christmas Day,
I wandered in indefinite space and time, how about
I circled in circles and circles, unstoppably
I echoed and echoed the hurtful truths, uncontrollably
I continued indefinitely in time and space.

Boxing Day,
I mustered with all my might the scarce bit left in me, there
I stood upon the debris of my broken mind and heart, and
I scouted out the most important for my mind and heart, whether in
Bits and pieces of strength or will, or
Fragments and remnants of faith or love, and painfully
I, with just the scarce bit left in me, accompanied by
My friends' kindness, encouragement and moral support, so
I begun the daunting task of putting together, as fitable as can be
All the many many bits and pieces, fragments and remnants, and
Frame them back into my mind and heart.

Work in progress, and will take lots of love and uncertainties, that
They may never be the same again, but
At least better than lay waste in ruins.

Fiery Fear

I am cowardice, take me away;
I am unfit, lock me away;
I am impotent, do me away;
I am afraid, what am I waiting for?

Swim Away My Emotional Stress

EMOTIONAL STRESS ESCALATED.

It was about 8:15pm and the swimming pool was illy lit. The water was fairly transparent but cold. I plunged into the pool and kicked away. My old, smudgy, scratched googles did not help but like borne me a pair of bat's eyes. I pounded hard, I dragged harder. I looked ahead to remain a straight path. I did not care for anything else. I looked at nothing else but straight ahead.

A STRAIGHT PATH AN INTACT OF SANITY.

Dark, shadowy, dreamy I pulled hard. Occasonal dispersed particles of light travelled my path. Just as my respiration frustrated me I pushed harder, I pulled fierier. Not a spare second to catch a second breath. The medium was darkened, undarkened; ghostly, earthly; my mind merely flew with the universe. Allowed the universe to dictate my mind.

ONLY A UNIVERSAL MIND, NEVER A UNIVERSAL BODY.

One pull, one push, at the wall of opposite end I flipped and the flight repeated. The devil came and went but could never stayed long; the universe the mightiest. The devil relentless, I was prevailing. I minded my own business, I did look at the night sky. I knew I would pummel without fail. I could not have been alone. I must finish. Not a lap less; heavens, not a meter less.

A COMPLETE ROUTINE A SUCCESSFUL DISCIPLINE.

It took me nearly 75 minutes. I swam 2.5 km.

Time Space Mediocrities

... created creation, time and space; time, space
Transverse immemorial, infinity; time, space
Voyage what is matter, what is non-matter; time, space
Transcend, tyrannize all is, are; time, space
Transpire, blink instantaneous years; time, space
Contain, dictate mediocrities.

... mediocrities, livable years and living things; livables
Celebrate, rejoice every living; livings
Love, TEST every livable; livables
Mature, age every living; living
Procreate, annihilate every livable; years, things
livable, living relentlessly celebratory, salutatory;

... 2012, Christmas Eve, a remembrance with
Immense, unbearable weights on my shoulder; to all
Moms, dads, brothers, sisters, friends, truly
I wish a joyous, wonderful Christmas Eve to 2013; whilst
I wait till tonight to kick away my 2.5 km swim!!!

Truly stressed, nathan phang.